I love music! I love to listen to music live or on the radio and play the piano - yet, after all these years of being totally involved in music, it still amazes me how music can speak to the soul. It can lift your spirit, it can put you in a mood, it can bring back memories. When certain songs are played for specific reasons - it can make you not want to listen to the song anymore in order to not feel how you did when you would hear the song. There was one song that I have locked away - used to love to listen to it, until we used it at my husband's funeral. So now I choose not to listen to it because it brings back those memories - a time that I would not wish on anyone.
So this morning, listening to the Southern Gospel station on my tv - imagine my surprise to hear the first strains of this song - a song I have NEVER heard on the tv radio, it is rarely played on the radio - I don't even know if I have ever heard it on the radio. But as soon as the first strums started - I knew.. I stopped in my tracks and could not believe I was really hearing that song. But hear it I did - in its entirety and it did take me back. I wondered why I was hearing it this morning - i mean, I love my life. I am in a place that 10 years ago I never thought I would be in. I love my husband and my family, my friends, my work, my church, my life. But I am one that truly believes that if after so long I am hearing it now there must have been a reason. I looked at the calendar and realized that this is time that was the "end" -when we left the house together for the last time to take him - no, rush him - to the hospital. To watch him go through everything he went through at the end and And so - 10 years later - that one song, played for 3 minutes this morning - has taken me back.
My Daughter!
10 years ago
